The Winter of Our Discontent

I have always thought of myself as a refugee from the clutter and decay of population centers. We live thirty-five miles from the nearest store; thirty-five barren miles is what I was searching for when I moved here. It is something of an animal oasis, a utopian community for people, dogs, and birds. But this COVID winter has threatened our tranquility.

For years my routine has been to wake up at 4:30 or 5:00, coffee up, and take the dogs for a walk before I begin my morning chores. Currently, there are four dogs that greet me as I walk past the bird feeder smothered by a hundred goldfinches, under the giant cottonwood trees, past the homing pigeon coop, and approach the kennels and the falcon mews.

I tie the falcons out in their weathering yard where they stay until I’m back from our walk and ready to exercise them. The dogs leap and bark their heads off until I turn them loose and they chase each other around the grassland that is cordoned off to form a large front yard.

When I turn toward the driveway all four dogs freeze and watch me as if I am a rooster pheasant that has walked into their territory. They are intent and I make them wait. When I tell them “all right,” they explode, up the driveway and under those big old cottonwoods.

The dogs and I walk up the road until we’ve gone a couple miles. They, of course, cover much more ground than I do. They search the desolate snow drifts for a whiff of a quail, a grouse, a pheasant. They long to hear the sound of a shotgun.

For the last forty years I have spent at least part of every winter in New Mexico at the home of probably my best friend. His big, beautiful, and desolate ranch is one of my favorite places on Earth. He and his family give me a place to sleep and enough peace and quiet to do some writing, but the main draw—beside the fact that New Mexican winters are much warmer than those on the Northern Plains— is that my friend’s ranch is full of birds for the dogs to point and the falcons to chase. For forty years I haven’t had to take the dogs for winter walks. For forty years the dogs, falcons, and I have gotten our exercise by doing what they live for.

But this year there could be no soul-saving quail hunt in New Mexico. This year, I’ve been reminded that we are getting older, a fact that put me and my best friend in the population of Americans at high risk during the pandemic. Who knows what bug I could catch driving for twenty hours down the center line of the country? Who knows what dangers I could bring to New Mexico with me?

So, I’ve been imprisoned here on this cold and lonely ranch. Mostly it’s one gray day after the next. Even the dogs have begun to feel the strain. Lately, Calvin and Shiner, a pair of English Setters who are big buddies when they hunt together, stop halfway up the driveway and go stiff legged as they circle each other, growling and threatening to mix it up.

It’s enough to make a guy consider murder—if there was only someone to murder.

Screech Owl

Earlier this fall, on one of those morning walks with the dogs, I happened to look up at the huge, old snag in one of our biggest cottonwoods. My eyes were drawn to a hole in an enormous, rotting branch in the ancient tree. Over the years, I have seen starlings, raccoons, a couple wood ducks, and one wayward fox squirrel emerge from that hole. But that morning at the beginning of this insufferable winter, I saw a ball of silver brown fluff. It was really too far away to make a positive ID but I was pretty sure that it was the tiny Eastern screech owl that I’d been hearing in the evenings. SIBLEY’S GUIDE TO BIRDS puts the weight of an Eastern screech at just six ounces, but when I’d spotted him, he filled that gaping hole, perfectly camouflaged against the dead wood so that you’d never know there was an opening. I named him Homer Hoot.


Over the course of walking the dogs this fall and winter, I’ve seen Homer come and go. He’ll be in his hole for day or two and then he’ll disappear for long stretches of time. I don’t usually think much about Homer’s absence because he always returns. I go about my morning tasks whether he is there to supervise or not. I put the dogs back in their kennels, feed them, and put the falcons out on their blocks.

PigeonsMy last chore of the morning is to feed the pigeons and let them out to fly. The pigeon loft has an 8x12 hole cut out that gives the birds the freedom to come and go from the loft, and there are one-way bobbers that can swing down over the hole to lock the pigeons inside. Usually, when I open the loft door, there is mad flutter of wings as twenty pigeons shift to prime perches for getting out first.

But this morning all the pigeons sat perfectly still. No pigeon moved. I got a creepy feeling and looked down at the floor. A big, black-and-white male pigeon was on the floor. He lay motionless. His head had been severed and was nowhere to be found.

Screech Owl

It was like a horror movie. As I slowly raised my eyes, I expected organ music. But there was no monster, just horrified pigeons. Suddenly a tiny, silver-brown stirring caught my attention, and two very serious, large yellow eyes materialized from an odd puff of feathers on a pigeon perch. It was Homer—guilty as sin.

“He had found someone to murder,” I told the dogs. He must have snuck into the loft through the bobbers and found himself trapped. When Homer killed the pigeon, he’d been punching over his weight. His victim weighed twice as much as he did, but the frustration of this long winter must have given him the strength of a superhero.

When I caught him with a net and lifted him out with my hand, he bit me and footed me with tiny talons that barely drew blood. Before I let him go, I held him for a few extra seconds and felt his heart beating. It seemed as big as an eagle’s.

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  • We lost our last four birds this winter — probably a ring tailed cat and it was “murder most fowl”. We found where he? got in and marveled at how he made it into Fort Birdy — over, under, around and through.

    It’s too quiet down at the barn, but we won’t get more birds. We made it through this one, but we doubt we’ll make it through the next one.

  • Thank you Dan, for the beautiful writing and pictures. It all looks so peaceful, but I guess too much of anything can get to us sooner or later, even owls. I often hear owls in the evening outside my windows, hooting at each other. They are probably Eastern screech owls, they are here in Texas. Hoping to get back out among nature in the near future.

  • I love your writing style. I was transported and experienced a little snapshot of your life. You obviously appreciate all animals. My kind of person!

    Janet Wainwright
  • A great piece of writing, but……The Lone Ranger ? Where’s the family ? Where’s the staff ?

    Darryl Carter
  • What a beautiful story, awash in the truth that we are all struggling to get through this horror and survive, just like you and Homer….. bless you for not making the trip to New Mexico however difficult that was, who knows how many lives were saved because you thought of someone other than yourself……love to you and all that is dear to you.

  • Had to pause after the first few paragraphs. They took me back out on a fence row along a corn field maybe an hour before sunset. My English Setter Jack was working about 30 yards out front but he was lost in the hunt and about to forget about me. “Hunt em up Jack!” He looked back and smiled.

    That was 50 years ago. We had fence rows then. We had pheasants. We had time to hunt. A license was $14. and no one thought it unusual or “toxic”. We were free.

    Still have my Dad’s old Browning. The pheasants are gone but the memories are vivid.

    Thanks for the story, Dan. We have been most fortunate.

    Scott Williams
  • Bucolic heaven. Thanks!

  • Thank you. The circle of Life and the hope of the freedom to fly. Beautifully written.

    Candi Glenn
  • On a gray day in North Carolina, I needed this.

    Gary Freeman
  • Now that Homer has discovered the buffet, it’s gonna be hard to keep him out.

    Sorry you have to miss your annual trip to hunt with Jim in NM. Hard year for us all, but happy to be (almost) on the other side of it.

    Stay well.

    Chuck Beatty
  • Top o’ th’ mornin’ to you on this St. Patrick’s Day, Mr. O’Brien! I’m ‘green’ with envy, It’s been a tough winter for many, but on the scale, you are the lucky one. Thank you for sharing your space and the creatures that share it with you. Natural wonders! The photography is beautiful too.

    Fee Jacobsen
  • Owls being owls, being themselves. Thanks for the story.

  • I just read the article and I got a feeling of the last year of corona virus has been very rough and sad but life keeps going on and will fly the coup to new and greater heights on the wings of hope and heart.

    Jack Gallagher
  • Happy to hear you are surviving both the COVID pandemic & the South Dakota winter, Dan!! Stay safe & be healthy!!!

    Alex Pociask
  • Hi Dan,I must say I love Homer and Buster as well !
    Here in Europe many countries are still lockdown , and we are having our third wave… lucky you in the Prarie


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